well, today was and OK day. I got to sleep in today which is always nice, and then I took my medications and vitamins. I when to the optical office to get my glasses fixed and went to my other doctors appointments. I first went to the lab to do a sperm analysis, and when I got to the front desk, there was a pretty girl and I saw her and chickened out. Which I know is silly, I have a girlfriend, who I love very much, so I shouldn't be concerned with that.  But, for some reason I thought about her and anyone knowing what I was doing as embarrassing and I quickly made my exit. I then went to my appointment with my Endocrinologist, and I got to talk to him bit. I explain to him how I felt about my condition, and how I felt about being different. He tried to make me feel better about everything by telling me that, because of my condition, I have the ability to get big and strong, and my size has alot of advantages in life, like sports. He also ask if I had a significant other, and I replied "yes" and he toldme, "see, everything is ok1" and I thought, yeah, I am unique and have been unique all my life. And this confirm it.

So, tomorrow I have an appointment with my Endocrinologist. I'm going to find out how I'm doing, and if my Acromegaly is progressing or if it's in a place of remission. I mean, I feel great... I haven't felt sick, or any aches or pains. I have been having a slight headache from time to time, and  little hoarseness lately. My voice sometime is really deep, which is kinda cool, except that I know its part of the side effects. I do want to ask him some questions, some things I've been struggling with. Like, for example, I'm part of this group Acromegaly community, This is supposed to be an support group for people like me, people with Acromegaly. Yet, most of the people I see don't look like me, they don't look as big as me. And then they have a store, where you can buy clothing with the Acromegaly community writing on it. But, none of it fits me, I thought I found somewhere, where I fit in, finally! But, I still don't fit in, the very place where I should, doesn't even Accommodate me. It brought me back to how I felt all my life, I just want to know if I'm that big, if there's something that makes me different from the rest, and why?
Then later I have to go to the sperm bank and do a Sperm analysis, I need to have my sperm count checked and my fertility, because this condition can effect whether or not I am able to have children, and I need to know for sure. My girlfriend didn't want me to write about this, But, I feel I need to get this off my chest, being that I have no one to talk to, and I have no friend who take interest in anything I say or do anyway. This is my outlet, and if I dont say anything, I'm allowing myself to be cut short, and my growth stunted. Especially, dealing with the thing that I have to deal with on a day to day basis.

My life

Today has started off as a good day so far. I woke up, made breakfast for me and my girl,  some eggs with a big glass of Orange juice. I took my medication and vitamins and loaded my ipod with this new album from an artist name Planet VI, the album is loaded with positive messages. It's playing through my headphones, like a soundtrack to my life. I went to my doctors visit, and it went great! Things are looking good and he made me feel good about life and my situation. Being that I have Acromegaly, there's many complications I have to be aware of. And my health has to be major focus in my life, and because I'm taking that part of my life serious, my doctor says I'm going to be ok. After my doctors visit, I get on the bus a head to work, the sun is out, shining bright, its a beautiful day. It a good day.  I take my time, and try to notice the beauty around me. I am reminded of a conversation, where the observation was, that there isn't any ugly people anymore... And I made the comment that all people have something beautiful about them. As I watched the people entering and exiting the set, and variety of looks and persona's. I then began thinking about life and what to do with it, and being in such a good mood, and my attitude is good, as well, I'm not ready to let anyone change that. Instead, I want to ride it out, plan to continue feeling this way.