So, my last visit to the Doctors was a good one I think. All my test where negative, kidneys are working fine and blood pressure was in good shape as well. I also got to ask my doctor a few question, which is why I said I think. I asked questions about my mortality, and he confirmed that this disease will decrease my mortality, but by how much I still don't know, and my doctor then told me that his biggest concerns is heart problems, and that's why all his test are focus mainly on the heart and how its holding up. He tells me that his focus is on my heart cause I could one day die from a heart attack. But, then ends the conversation with, "I think you'll be OK though!"
Then, he goes on to explain to me how good the care I'm getting and it basically is because of my insurance, which I get because of my job. Which is true, I don't know how I would survive without my insurance and the benefits of my job. He then goes on to tell me to not quite, and do what I need to do to rise up the ranks and keep this job so that I'm always taking care of. So, as I think about it, what a strange reality. I really need my job, me keeping my job is life or death. And when I go to work, it's not only for a paycheck, but it to live another day.
I wish I had a way to close this post and bring it all to ahead, and give you the reader something cleaver or thought provoking. Some kind of positive twist on the situation, but I don't. I don't really know how to take the situation, I know I have to keep moving forward, and keep trying to see the beauty in life. Stay motivated through my situation, and maintain some type of sanity.