A convo with my elders

So often, when you have a condition as I have, it becomes easy to focus on the negative and not take notice to the positive. Every little ache or headache can easily become magnified. And frustration can creep upon you quickly.  I have not been feeling well these past two weeks, and when I sat down to write you tonight, I struggle not to say anything negative. But, today I had to much needed and special conversations today. I went to the gym and not feeling well, I struggled to complete my workout. I wanted to quick and just go home. I told my self that I had to finish no matter what. as a matter of fact, and old Jerry West Quote popped into my head, "if you only work hard on the days you feel good, you will not be successful. So, I gathered all I can mustar and finished it. As I was in the locker room, getting to dressed to leave, I was fortunate to have gotten swepted into a conversation, by two older gentlemen. Now, the Trayvon Martin case in still fresh in the minds of a lot of people. And these two brothas where having a conversation about that along with the life and time and the conditions throughout those times that the black man has faced. And I hate to loose you, by bringing up this topic, but from that conversation, and the presents of these men I felt not alone. To break it down, and to provide you with a visual of the seen. there was two men, one of which was in his 70's and the other in his 50's. and these brotha's where talking about that the Trayvon Martin case brought up memories from their childhood. the 70 year old man was from Boston, and talked about it from the perspective of living in one of the first intergrated places on the u.s soil. and seeing troops marching up and down his streets, and blacks living in one neighborhood and whites in another. The man in his 50's was from the L.A. and called account to all the riots and the the military marching his streets as well. He also, talked about the demise of the Black Panther Party, and the original purpose of the crips gang, and void in America for black men due to that. Then there was I, in my 30's reluctant to say anything cause for so long I've been made to feel as if the struggle I faced as a black man in my time frame eould not compare to these brotha's lives. Both of there stories where so... I can't think of words to describe,  and we they asked me of my childhood,  I began with the disclaimer, "I didn't have it as hard as you two. " Both of them said thing haven't really changed for black men and young black men.