remenising on the past

So... Today, I'm thinking of my journey through life for these past two years, and I'm reminded of the time when I first learned of my affliction, although, I don't perceive it as so. I had a series of unfortunate events, that lead to the discovery of a tumor and ultimately save my life, or at least prolonged it. There was a lot speculation from my doctor, on whether or not I indeed, had the disease made famous by the Late Andre the Giant, and though the thought had been stained in the back of my mind, I  still hadn't realize that this is serious yet. It wasn't until I under went a few test that confirmed the diagnoses of Acromegaly.  He then explained to me, what exactly Acromegaly is, and how it effects my body as well as my health. He also explained that the recommended course of action was to have surgery, because of the size of the tumor and that it threatened my vision, also, that I was experiencing the side effects of the disease a lot quicker than expected. I remember that day clearly, after receiving the news, I left my doctors office. The was out, not a cloud in the sky. I recall the sound of birds chirping, and the world being so nice to me. I felt that everyone, including strangers were overwhelmingly nice to me. Everyone smiling at me, while I try to smile back, all the while, a swarm of emotions ran through me, the thought of the disease and surgery, and what it might mean for me, how I would tell my family, and what my future might be like after it was all done. I had a long time to think about it, as I had taken the the city bus that day, and not only did I have a long walk to the bus stop, I also had a long bus ride home. I don't recall the feeling of fear, and I thought maybe I should, and began wondering if something was wrong with me because I'm not scare. I might've had a brief sensation of worry, but I was pretty calm. By the time I made it home I was at peace with it all. I had rationalize it all in my head. You see, from the time I was a young man til now, who I am was because of this, and the wonderful things I've seen and done wad because of who I am. I had came to terms with it all, and was grateful for it all. I knew, however that I still had to explain it to my mom and my girlfriend, which I felt wouldn't be easy. So, first I explained it to my girlfriend and then my mother, and with both I could since the fear, and worry in the voice and facial expression, but both told me that my calmness and my attitude made it hard for them to panic.
I think the one of the biggest impacts, this situation had on me, was at a friend's party, shortly before my surgery. I'm not really sure what the party was for, but,it seemed like everyone was there. All of his family was there and a lot of friends from our childhood were there. It was a huge event. I remember, shortly into the party it became apparent to me that everyone knew my situation.They all knew that I had this brain tumor, and was having surgery to remove it. I remember feeling that everyone was treating me as if this was the last time they would ever see me again. I remember listening to everyone talking about me as if I was not there, as they all told their "remember when Anthony..." stories, and each person telling me how much the appreciated me and the person I was, as if that was going to end...They were telling me bye. All night, I was getting long embraced hugs, and kisses on the forehead. I felt like the spirit in the room that has yet realized that he's dead. Or that I should be on my death bed, and they all came to my room to share my last moments alive. It was odd and strange, a feeling I really did not like. I then thought that I should write my life down and share my experiences with others so that when I do go my memories lives on, long after.