Oh well

Today, I've been struggling with my back, as it has been causing me pain for the past two weeks. I tried to find the cause to why I'm in such pain and discomfort, but the truth is I really don't know why. I woke up one morning feeling wonderful and half way through the morning I felt the pain and delt with the struggle to move properly without pain.
I've tried ibuprofen, heat and ice. And all provided a temporary solution to a bigger problem, my back, comfort, and mobility. I'm kind of worried that it might be the something associated with me and the condition of acromegaly. As I have notice this feeling of being bloated and sharp pains in my stomach, a long with pain in my ankles. There's just something that is a little different with me and its just hard to explain it. And now I have this nagging pain in my lower back. On-line there was a mention of Vertebral disc dysfunction, and that could be a scary thing for me cause that a deterioration and progressive structural change to my back and could change a lot for me, enabling be to continue being so active.
I cant get down though, I have to be positive. Maybe, I just tweaked it and I just need to be patient and make sure i use proper posture and I'll be better in no time....

How funny

So, a day ago I was in the gym working out when a lady approach me. She introduce her self and said that her and a friend noticed me, and where talking about my size. And that she told her friend that she was going to ask me about it. Now, I thought to myself, that this was going to be the normal, "how tall are you?" " Do you play basketball?" Questions. And she began talking about my size and how unique it is and and my features and she explained that she is a physician and wonder if I have acromegaly, and wanted to make sure that I have someone helping me. I admit it took me by surprise, but I was not upset that she asked me that. I actually was kinda happy, she could see what a lot of people can't or choose not to. She them went on to explain that, being that I was and adult and the way that medicine was when I was a child and with HMO's it would've been easy for me to slip through the cracks and go unnoticed, and For me making it to adulthood without being diagnosed and treated. It was nice that she noticed.
She then apologized if she offended me, as she hurried of. I wasn't affended, not at all. But, then some guy, sitting a few chairs over began to express that he was offended for me. He said,"how dare she ask you that!" And hoe upset he would've been. But, then proceeds to ask me how tall am I, if I played basketball and that I should be in the pro's. As I thought to myself, "WoW!" And responded, "I'm retired," with a smile on my face.

excuse me

Well, I've been on a bit of a hiatus from the free blog world. In some regards, as an attempt to gather my thoughts and clear my mind of clutter and garbage. And also, to try and determine a direction I want my life to go. I've had a bit of a struggle go on within myself, as I try and find out what truly is important to me and in this world. Many, have their own opinions and beliefs. They'll fight to make theirs yours, and blindly suggest that any opposed thought, or one that does not coincide with there own is blasphemy. And many people have valid points of views and although many I share, I still hear the contradictions and fear that wasted time and effort on such things may distract me from the truth. Many simple talk to much to actually hear the truth and to hear the answer that goes without saying.
Life is truly too short to concern yourself with foolishness, and at the drop of a hat, your life can abruptly and suddenly stop and change. And that to me means that you should be realistic with yourself, and not perpetuate the immoralities and delusions of others just to fit within the parameters of society. Because, if there is one truism, it would be that ,"you came into this world by yourself and that is how you'll leave." And at some point you will be held accountable for the things you were apart of, which could be the final determination of blissfulness or a tormented soul.
I'm sorry for going H.A.M. This is just something I had to get out, and I truly wish all happiness, and peace.
-one

I just want to get this off my chest

Someone posted, "God hears you loud and clear, sometimes we need to be quiet to hear him." As I thought about that, I'm always praying, and my prayers go according to my life. As of lately, I've been praying for a clear mind, or shall I say to think clearly. Because, I feel that if I can quiet the noise I have hear our heavenly father and the message he has for me.
And then, I think about those who I keep as company sometimes. And how often our conversations turn into battles, or debates. And often, they may become so self absorbed, that they're vision becomes clouded and are unable to see the answers to the concerns. Even when the answers are placed right in front of them.
There's plenty of instances, where I feel that the very issue that we complain of, is God's answer to us. It's God's solution, and we are so busy talking and complaining that we are unable to grasp that, and we are not listening so we miss that.
This it just something I was thinking about....