isn't it ironic

So, one of my biggest issue, is my blood pressure. My doctor is constantly monitoring me and my pressures. There's been sometimes where my blood pressure has been so high that, my doctor said I was in danger of having a stroke. Then what comes with it, is chest pain, or tightness in the chest, dizziness, headaches, and fatigue. And when I seen the cardiac doctor, he performed a stress test and eckocardiogram (I hope I said that right) , chest x-ray, and blood work to check my cardiac enzymes, all negative. My Endo doctor thinks that its caused by my acromegaly. And today, my doctor put me on another medication for my blood pressure called Hydrochlorothiazide. I know I know, that word is a monster to say. Just say HCTZ, it rolls of the tongue a lot better. But, anyway, the panthlet for this med says that it is for lowering blood pressure to prevent strokes, heart attacks, and kidney problems.  Now, this med has some no so pleasant side effects. Like, upset stomach, dizziness, lightheadedness headaches, and eye pain. This pill is a diuretic, and the last few days I've been feeling a little bloated, so I thought it could help. Maybe, I could drop some water weight, and maybe get that six-pack I've been working so hard for... But, so far all I got was dizziness, nausea, a headache, and the worse eye pain ever. The most ironic thing about it, is while experiencing all this discomfort, I spoke to some of my little cousins/god children about being healthy. So, I'm teaching them about building up your immune system to fight off sickness and the how choices you make about your health can keep you from getting sick and could make you feel better about yourself. Telling them why you should drink plenty of water and eat all your vegetables. I even tried to relate it to things that that could understand. The little girl is always concerned about her appearance, so I told how drinking water can keep her skin healthy and clear. and the little boy, I related the vegetables with each super hero, like superman eats his carrots that's why he has super vision. All the while, I trying not to show how crummy I felt. I think they got the point.
But, I realize that there's more that I could be doing, and I've relaxed of my heath regiment. I don't want to loose site of my fitness and health goals, and that's something that makes me feel good about myself. That seems to be an issue I find with a lot of people including myself. When we do feel good we hide inside our homes and feel sorry for ourselves. But, what we really need is to find our "happy place," what really makes us happy! Leave the self destructive behavior alone. Go for a walk, ride a bike, go dancing, write a love poem. Find an outlet, rediscover an old hobby, or even a new one.
peace